Well, for the last few days i ve been bombarded by a single question from many of my friends , "How are U feeling , as we start to count the days to the end of our college life??" And well the normal answer from anyone would be "Oh yeah.. Am goin to missssssss college life like anythin man!!! " And thats the same answer i ve been givin them but only with my fingers crossed.. As i sit down & ponder whether am really gonna miss it all ?? Well , My conscience Gives me a Big "NO" !! No ! I don think i wil miss college life as a whole!
Well , You may think whether this guy is that much stone-hearted and may ask WHY ?!! Before answerin it , i ll make few points clear ! Its just that i wont miss college life as a "Whole" !! I will miss it in "parts" though !! N by parts , i especially mean Individuals - Ppl who ve made this past 4 yrs wonderful for me !! Cant name them all , But guys n gals , I ll miss U alll lik anythin !!! :( And also My Bus n my bus mates ! I ll miss it more than anythin ! Those 2 hrs of up n down journey were the most happiest moments in these 4 yrs !
Next comin to the pt , Well when i stepped into college , i was expectin a fun filled Colleging experience as i had heard from my seniors , that SSN is the best place to be doin ur engineering if U want to enjoiii ur college life to the max , the place where COMPLETE freedom is given to u to do whatever u need ! And yeah it was exactly like what they said ! It was an absolute heaven when compared to what i heard from ppl from other colleges esp the Jeppiar institutions !
But all that i expected , remained as just Expectations & never ever happened until this very day !! N those expectations were nothing huge or something ! They were as simple as - Koool classmates , both guys n gals - united in freindship , havin whole lotsa fun together - Goin out now n then as an entire class to treats and movies - good interaction and rapport between each n evryone in the class, etc !! But none of these turned out into reality and remained just as expectations !!!
I ve heard from other colleges , where ppl not only enjoy as a class but as an entire dept ! But right from early days , we were never meant to be united as a dept with bitterness increasin among both sections of the dept due to few incidents ! But then , leave alone the dept ! Atleast we could ve spared well as a Class , but we failed to even do that ! Am ashamed to tel that there are still guys n gals in our class who have nt even seen each other face to face ! Only then the topic of speakin , interactin, and making friendship arises !!
Ok then ! Leave alone the interaction between guys n gals !! Was there atleast good rapport among the guys atleast ???!! Well , again the answer to it is a BIG NO !! Split up into groups,gangs,cliques n wat not , the only things we did as a whole class was to play cricket n go have lunch in kelambakkam ( only if theres a treat :) !! N i dont want to comment bout the gals ! I leave it to themselves to contemplate whether they ve done justice to their college lives by trying to look beyond their own "Gangs" ?!!
So guys ?! What can i take as memories from my college life ??! Those "Split - up" tours (which normally must be the most memorable part of our college life) ??? All those verbal spats and back stabbings??? Or those personal enemities still ragin within many !??! Im afraid not !!
SO the only things i can take from here as good-old memories into my next phase of life can be those Personal moments i ve shared with the most of U ! Those chats.. Those Kalaaichfying sessions.. Those vetti conferences.. They ll remain wit me forever n ever !
Well, May be the prob is not with any of U or our class !! May be the prob is with me alone !! Mostly bcos am the only- child i never was attached to anyone nor am i much emotional .. I even did nt feel much when i left school ! May be even bcos of this own personal nature of mine , I feel so Numb as i leave this place !!! But somewhere in my mind, somethin rings an alarm tellin me , This time around, the problem is NOT with me alone !!!!
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Yeah machi !! But after readin this many of our freinds in our college n my freinds in other colleges said , its the same situation in Other depts and in many other colleges too !
And yeah ! A whole lotta attitude change is needed in these ppl ! Don know how on earth they ll survive in a Industry-environment !!!
Well documented post ... (Applauses) ... I felt just this way in 4th semester and by 5th sem i lost all hopes of seeing a class that would basically be a class, Having been in a class like E section, which is a heaven by any standards, I wanted our class to be that way as well and I did strive hard for it in all ways (especially in third semester) I could. But believe me dude none in our class believed in that.Some were scared if they would be teased for talking with member of opposite sex and they were happy messaging and chatting in gtalk or yahoo without knowledge of their peers and the best thing is they actually thought they were doing something ingenious. Worse, I feel nobody communicates openly to anyone. It happens this way, many people misinterpret people and they never bother to clear it, If anyone has a problem ( misinterpretation basically ) with me ( lets say!!! ), they will not talk to me about it, they will discuss about it with every other person but not me , Why is that so? Its just not about the movies and the treats dude, but like how much people learn about the other, How much they talk and share?, How much they get along? Its like the answers are big zero for all this questions.All i can say is we all basically missed three and a half years of our life.Am not going to comment on rivalry that nagged our department for everyone knows we are in deep shit regarding that.
Exactly da ! U quoted better , wat i meant to say.. N By goin out as a class , i meant that those wd ve been Jus some starting point for some kinda interaction to bloom between the ppl which wd ve helped them to know more bout each other and get to come outta their shells which may ve been due to jus shyness ( or their damn F**kin ATTITUDE).. Personally i felt , most of our mates were Gems as individuals , but as a part of a class , they were nothin more than Rotten tomatoes !!
U r absolutely right anna..even i feel the same way..i thot i was the only one but now i kno im not alone..all my friends in coll seem to be enjoyin coll,atleast more than school but i seriously felt better in school..i ve never missed coll even if v had 2 months of sem hols..but i wud be yearning to go back to school even if v had 10 days of term-end hols..the basic factor of differentiation is UNITY not FREEDOM..even if u r friends of everyone in the class,if u r wit one gang,u cant be wit your friends in another gang..n yeah..in school,we wud be waiting for excursion time..but im already fed up wit one tour in coll..
theres something which makes me hate coll from the very beginning..i think its prolly cos i compare everything tats happening here to wat happened in skol..im stil unable to detatch from my school memories..I wud call college life "HELL" wen compared to school..
i'm very sure..I WUD NOT MISS COLL EVEN BY A MICROSCOPIC TINGE AFTER I LEAVE THIS PLACE..
@ Junior :
He he, All of us in our batch think that our Juniors batches are far better than our batch !! Becos i myself have seen guys and gals interacting well and goin out and stuff !! So don worry ! You ppl are wayyyyy better than Us !!
And don keep comparin college life with school for everything ! That was different and this ones different! At school we were all jus kids - there was nothing called "EGO" between us ! But here its a completely different scenario ! This damn place is filled with Ego-maniacs !! All you have to do is keep away from 'em and try enjoying as much as you can , may not be as an entire class as you & i wished , but atleast as small-small gangs !! Plsssss enjoy college life thru everyway possible ! Else you ll be left monaing like us at the end of it all !!!
College life is the best period of our life !! Don damn waste it !!!
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