Counting the Dayzz ! :(

Well, for the last few days i ve been bombarded by a single question from many of my friends , "How are U feeling , as we start to count the days to the end of our college life??" And well the normal answer from anyone would be "Oh yeah.. Am goin to missssssss college life like anythin man!!! " And thats the same answer i ve been givin them but only with my fingers crossed.. As i sit down & ponder whether am really gonna miss it all ?? Well , My conscience Gives me a Big "NO" !! No ! I don think i wil miss college life as a whole!

Well , You may think whether this guy is that much stone-hearted and may ask WHY ?!! Before answerin it , i ll make few points clear ! Its just that i wont miss college life as a "Whole" !! I will miss it in "parts" though !! N by parts , i especially mean Individuals - Ppl who ve made this past 4 yrs wonderful for me !! Cant name them all , But guys n gals , I ll miss U alll lik anythin !!! :( And also My Bus n my bus mates ! I ll miss it more than anythin ! Those 2 hrs of up n down journey were the most happiest moments in these 4 yrs !

Next comin to the pt , Well when i stepped into college , i was expectin a fun filled Colleging experience as i had heard from my seniors , that SSN is the best place to be doin ur engineering if U want to enjoiii ur college life to the max , the place where COMPLETE freedom is given to u to do whatever u need ! And yeah it was exactly like what they said ! It was an absolute heaven when compared to what i heard from ppl from other colleges esp the Jeppiar institutions !

But all that i expected , remained as just Expectations & never ever happened until this very day !! N those expectations were nothing huge or something ! They were as simple as - Koool classmates , both guys n gals - united in freindship , havin whole lotsa fun together - Goin out now n then as an entire class to treats and movies - good interaction and rapport between each n evryone in the class, etc !! But none of these turned out into reality and remained just as expectations !!!

I ve heard from other colleges , where ppl not only enjoy as a class but as an entire dept ! But right from early days , we were never meant to be united as a dept with bitterness increasin among both sections of the dept due to few incidents ! But then , leave alone the dept ! Atleast we could ve spared well as a Class , but we failed to even do that ! Am ashamed to tel that there are still guys n gals in our class who have nt even seen each other face to face ! Only then the topic of speakin , interactin, and making friendship arises !!

Ok then ! Leave alone the interaction between guys n gals !! Was there atleast good rapport among the guys atleast ???!! Well , again the answer to it is a BIG NO !! Split up into groups,gangs,cliques n wat not , the only things we did as a whole class was to play cricket n go have lunch in kelambakkam ( only if theres a treat :) !! N i dont want to comment bout the gals ! I leave it to themselves to contemplate whether they ve done justice to their college lives by trying to look beyond their own "Gangs" ?!!

So guys ?! What can i take as memories from my college life ??! Those "Split - up" tours (which normally must be the most memorable part of our college life) ??? All those verbal spats and back stabbings??? Or those personal enemities still ragin within many !??! Im afraid not !!
SO the only things i can take from here as good-old memories into my next phase of life can be those Personal moments i ve shared with the most of U ! Those chats.. Those Kalaaichfying sessions.. Those vetti conferences.. They ll remain wit me forever n ever !

Well, May be the prob is not with any of U or our class !! May be the prob is with me alone !! Mostly bcos am the only- child i never was attached to anyone nor am i much emotional .. I even did nt feel much when i left school ! May be even bcos of this own personal nature of mine , I feel so Numb as i leave this place !!! But somewhere in my mind, somethin rings an alarm tellin me , This time around, the problem is NOT with me alone !!!!